Frankly my darling, you're all I've been looking for

Frank my darling, you're all I've been looking for. You make me want to let you be, stand there arms open everytime you want to fall. Just for the sake of falling.

I take back a lot more than you realize. No, I don't want your commitment, I don't want you to babysit, I don't want you to go out of your way, I want to be as much a part of your paradigm as long as I'm walking along the way.

There is consolidation in your presence, there is truth to your guilt, there is remorse towards chaos and there is love, just the right amount of it for those who need it.

I love you, I know I do. But not the kind of love that can't handle the distance, not an obsession where I demand you to be mine, not the need to be my newspaper, not the kind of love that takes up all of you to complete all of me.

I love you for I feel calm around the warmth, to offer all I can for you to be who you want to be, not according to me, no love, NEVER. I really love you for the mess we make of ourselves and still wonder why we're even worth the conversation, for the comfort of being as human as possible, for letting go of what troubles to experience a sigh of relief, for that long read that can get me teary eyed, for the beautiful poetry I have the privilege of experiencing, for the heightened emotions, the physical ordeal, menace of expression, the dance of the heart, I love you for all the closure.

I don't love you to force a future of permanence, to accuse you of not trusting whom your heart wants to glide you, to manoeuvre according to a dysfunctional society that breaks you down only because it can, to silently weep.

I adore you because I want to celebrate life with you, your falls, your mishappenings, your dinner menu, your dreams, your efforts of informality, your sharp eyes, ruffled beard, your choices. All your choices. Your brand of shampoo, underwear, curtains, furniture upholstery, tattered phones, broken messages, hearts, conscious mistakes, the shell you hide into when you can't think. I want to toast to that. To the strength of your decision.

I will take as much as you give me, will give you as much as I can, hold you whenever it's okay, protect you against all the nightmares we both don't see coming. I want to go all out and help you hunt for people in your life who will help you grow, show you more of yourself, question your threshold and bring you down on your knees for a small bargain. I want to witness all that.

I love you because after a long time I could allow myself to be without wanting to control the derivations of it all. I love you because I know under the most trying of circumstances, should they happen, whether it's deception, a devastating battle, clash of ideologies, unreasonable respect for one another's lifestyle and mere emotional thrashing, it still won't be enough to stop me from loving you, all of you.

I will still want to love you, day in and day out to watch you grow into a man far better than your expectations, in all human possibilities.

Your frown matters, and within my perimeter of acceptance, I want to know somewhere, I did something to change that.

Mentioned, I always thought that when I find someone, he'd be the luckiest bloke on earth to have me all his. You made me realize, that she who wins your heart will in all honesty be the luckiest of them all, and the honour and privilege of being there right then when this happens is worth every muscle spent.

Frankly my darling, you're all I've been looking for. To celebrate our lives together, apart.